Beautiful Nightmare…

when the dark ages was still engulfing the world. Atukoi! this post has nothing to do with that…

I saw someone pic profile with this words–> I have moved to facebook
okay..It seems everyone is switching to facebook now. Pity this friendster,anyway it is an open market after all. So let the best wins. You decide!

As for me, I have my own group of friends who is still using friendster and some are now using facebook. Uhm, maintaining both is not such a big deal anyway. So, nothing changes much. hehe

But on another note, my blog is TOTALLY not this one anymore. I have totally moved to blogspot. Seriously blogging there now. So, feel free to drop by at kaleidoscopic-dreams.blogspot.com . There is not much to explain on why did I move, as you are reading this it is self-explanatory.

But, if you are so lazy to click on that link given, here are some updates that definitely wont clog your brain…it is just very minor info

currently

• still safely a teacher with so many things to do yet so little time in hand
• growing horizontally day by day since the vertical growth is almost un-noticeable now.
• would like to be updated by long lost friends since now everyone started working and never bother to contact each other
• blogging here in friendster and hating it

so, that’s about it. more to read in blogspot okay…so do visit..muacks!!!
 

current mood:*indescribable~ got such word pula
current situation: sleepy yet still semangat to type this
                                : just got back from a relaxing time in the Island of Gods
                                : will be deprived of TLC in a couple days of time
                                : hating the reality of life that will kick after the holiday ends..BENCI!
                                : clueless about the future and just living everyday and treasuring it
                ~damn my breast hurts, stupid hormone cycle…

I just don’t want to get my post to be like another ramblings on a diary page. But I cant help it.

Lately, i am not sure whether my mood swings or what. But things are not turning well as it seems.

When people started hating you..

When people started to judge you..

when people started telling that what you are doing is wrong..

I can’t stand it…! I really can’t stand it…please don’t be so judgemental…

if not i will be goin mental. Damn it, seriously there is no room for tolerance.

EVERYTHING I did, wasn’t good enough for you

more to see here

there have not been so much update on this blog lately

well, here goes:
*just got back from ranau, accompanying the dance team for a competition.and yay, we won! the team has booked a ticket for the state finals coming July
*been trying hard to keep up with a 500-900 calories per day diet, but not quite succesful for now.
*temptation of coffee beans, starbucks, mcdonalds are SO hard to resist
*and here comes May next month, battle of the KadazanDusun Beauties again. I am out of the league this year. taking time off leaving room for my career.if join never will win anyway.
*i have another hour before i gotta leave for school.
*and YAY again! Thank God it’s Friday…damn i missed their heavenly mudpie..

Been spending most of my time for the past one week at church. Well, it was the holy week anyway. Involved with the preparation as well as the choir.

The Youth Jubilee Cross is visiting as well now. So, quite a handful to take care of. Yet, I found something very intriguing about the presence of this visitor.

Unexplainable tranquility..

More pictures here

that’s one word that most likely can describe the state i am in now. more often than not, i have used the word ‘malas’ just to describe the smallest tinge of laziness that I am feeling. but now, the word lazy that should be written here is with a capital L.

just feeling so lazy. particularly today, end of the weekend. 2 days is just not enough to face another week of school, and hell lot of yelling around. thank GOD, its just another 4 days of schooling then its the mid term break.

hopefully could manage my time well, so that I wont waste it even for a milisecond.

whoa…general election is coming and believe or not, my name is in the registered voters list. Damn. This means i have the responsibility to vote. *yikes! so malas want to be a very responsible citizen. Apart from not really knowing the reason behind all the hoo-haa about the local political scene, I am just so lazy to queue up for the voting line

recent stories

*chap goh meh is here! that the end of chinese new year. welcome to the year of the rat! Didn’t get much angpows this year. hmmmm.. economic downturn for me.

*been up and busy with school work. still trying to get my hands on the things that I am supposed to do. So many work, so little time..*very cliche! trying my best to get organized also.

*finding solutions to anger management. anyone who do know how to control anger do let me know. I am in dire need of help now

*deprived of money. government system has too many procedures and bureaucracy. gotta wait for another couple of months for my first pay cheque to come. *I am broke now

*currently addicted to spas..Solus Per Aqua

I guess am gonna be trained to be a perfect housewife soon considering the housework load done by me (especially in the morning). wash the dishes, clean the houses, do the laundry, cook..

People thought life is SO much easier when you only have to show up for work between 12 to 6 pm. But not in my position, before school gotta prepare for teaching *let alone more other job like class teacher and so on, the other admin job is another thing* and at the very same time the household chores gotta be running smoothly as well.

This is the disadvantage if you are a single young person but living with your family still. So those who are staying alone in a so called "rumah bujang" be thankful that you only have to take care your own S***. ahaks

more rants in my
 ..till then enjoy your life to the fullest. cos I "THINK" I am…huhu, gotta cook lunch after this

bubbly..bubbly..Hell no,it is not champagne this time. But, doh..How I miss the taste of it! I think that’s the only drink that really can take down SO fast. period. ahakz.

It’s BUBBLY by Colbie Cailat that I am listening to now while typing this post. Just so wanted to be in that mood but I just choose not to be. Since my last post, changes seems to happen again. Again.

From teaching science and biology for form 4 and 6, now I am teaching Maths for form 2 and Physical Education as well. Can you imagine that? Me, teaching PE classes. Jeeez! Hentam saja la what to do. None of these are my expertise.

The response by a much younger group of students is certainly super awkward. I am not used to entertaining kids younger than 15 years old. So, the level of communication has to be a bit childish and a LOT of physical energy especially on my vocal chords. whew! Let alone I am the form teacher for the back class, the so-called not so bright students class. Hmmmm….

Don’t ask me why suddenly I am sort-of demoted to teach a lower form. Its the school policy! *damn it* got such thing meh? With the news of all form 6 teachers will be given a chance to "naik pangkat" everybody seems so eager to teach the most senior student in school. Me, being the junior teacher there is being eliminated to give "way" to the senior teachers to teach the senior students.

Hmmmmmm…*sulk*

I have to give way eventually after a while. Everything is done subtlely the terrorist way..*I think*. Anyway, we are the ones who are "SEDIA UNTUK BERKHIDMAT" or even better "KAMI YANG MENURUT PERINTAH". So have to give way la…