Wireless connection not functioning anymore. Now updating this page in a place where I should pay to surf. Hate this. Not in the mood to write anything now. School holiday so just wasting time here and there. Urgh..
I laugh …people say it’s not that funny
I cry…people say it’s very phoney
I smile…people question the sincerity
I frown…people say that I am cocky
Unsound as it seems
But it is what people see
What is there is just me
And they are just so blind to see
Hoping to be heard
Hoping to be seen
Yet it only end with a dot
And that is when its gone
(people will only realize how priceless is something only when it is gone)
GONE…
Month of August..convocation time for almost all of the tertiary level institutions. USM, UKM, UM, UTP, UNIMAS,UTAR,UTM, UMS, UPM, U-NAME-IT! Semua ada. A lot of people I know will be graduating also.(Boo-Hoo..I am still studying).A new page of their lives has just started, from a student world to a whole new world. A new stage, a new phase. Working phase, Being-engaged stage, Married-stage..hoho..startling yet its reality. Lots of things could change once one received the scroll which i think some kind like a ticket for you to jump to another stage.
Anyway, I just want to CONGRATULATE those who will be receiving their scroll this month. HAPPY GRADUATION DAY + ALL THE BEST for your future undertakings. Sheila…Congrats for being a certified mathematician (haha..sa nda berapa paham ba apa course ko buat tu actually). Eve..Congrats jadi Translator yang berjaya (iya ka dat? hehe). Wek, Dai..Tahniah jadi guru yang terlatih.Gy + Faur .. Congrats for the recent unimas convo….Alamak..so many to congratulate la! The list very long one. Those whom I din manage to congratulate personally or come to their convo day…Sorry ok… all of you are always in my mind 
Congratulations to all!
Btw, for the information of the USM graduates..come la you all to campus now. They are really cleaning the whole campus already. DTSP tukar the lampu on the ceiling.. the taman in front they all trim2 the tumbuh-tumbuhan already..the camps for the gerai2 up already.. the bus stop depan dewan budaya they cuci the atap today…hahaha.
On an unrelated incident, (hehe..this sounds like a news pula) for the first time today I walked at the academic building for the first time since this term started. Having my practical now, so I found no reason to set foot on that area but today got things to do then walked there la. For the first time in this term, I felt so normal again..hahaha..dunno how to describe this but seeing the faces that I usually see when I go to class last time made everything so normal. Of course the faces are all my juniors because most of my batch graduated already yet it dawn on me that student life will only come once…Now having a glimpse on the working world, I am not sure I wan’t to be on which side. Somehow, life has to move on eventually…so gotta live with that.
As the weeks pass by, everyday has it own story to enfold and a lullaby to end it, fun filled laughter, tears of sadness, smiles and frowns. Observing, reflecting and understanding what those things have to offer- is truly a remarkable experience that someone could gain. Its only a matter of time that one soul could fully understand how great the impact of that experience.
Found something really beautiful on my friends blog and wish to share it with all also.
A Teaching Testament
I am here to turn teenagers into professionals
Not just to lecture and conduct tutorials
I am here to ask and encourage questions
Not just to give answer
I am here to stimulate thinking
Not just to share what I have prepared
I am here to motivate students’ interest in the subject
Not just cover the syllabus
I am here to understand the students’ learning problems
Not just to evaluate their performance
I am here to encourage students to take personal responsibility for their own learning
Not just to call for active participation and doing of tutorials
I am here to facilitate group discussions and synergy
Not just to share my knowledge, skills and experiences
I am here to provide opportunities for personal reflections, deep learning and applications
Not just to give out handout notes and project assignments
I am here to invite students to new learning experiences
Not just to call out names and take their attendances
I am here to be a mentor, friend and guide, a role model, a coach and their cheerleader
I am here because I want to touch young lives, expand their horizons, lift their spirits and deepen their values
I do this so to build a better society, a better world for all of us
I am here because the opportunity is NOW
Henry Tio
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Cons, if u read this…siou ah nda kestau awal2 mo pinjam ni dari blog ko..hehe..maaf sigu! 
Indeed bad habit is the hardest to kill. These days I will always end up waking up late. No determination to start the new day. Nothing nice to look forward to. Plans to workout every morning, I did it in my dreams only. Haha. What a lazy girl I am. Yet I can’t help it. Beside that, while am working I tend to munch on junk food…and this is BAD. Working under stress made me crave for chocolate or sweets. If I can’t get those in my mouth, I’ll start to be cranky. Whoa…BAD habit. I know all these are not good but still it’s hard for me to budge from the comfort zone. Plus, retail therapy won’t really work on me these days because I am sort of broke. Maybe I should organize a fund raising to raise money for me…hahaha..(brains cells are not really working correctly now)
Talking about cells, I read the news on thestar.com just now reporting about the story of a family who decided to allow docs harvest the organs from their clinically dead daughter.Their daughter was involved in an accident and was in coma before she was pronounced brain dead. The organs harvested manage to be transplanted to those needy people. Such a nobel deed done by the family and the girl of course. But I wonder does she really wanted her organs donated. Well, whatever it is they had helped many people by just doing this. One loss is a gain for others
I salute those who have decided that they will be an organ donor. As for me I am not ready for that yet. Don’t ask me why, me,myself also do not know. Maybe some day….
Oh I just want to share this picture with all. I saw this on the national geographic site. Very interesting for me = Rare cloud form above Antartica
Maybe one will just say that this picture is merely clouds in the sky, but since small I was always fascinated by the skies of Antartica especially the aurora. And this picture is one of the many wonders the cold and barren land of Antartica could offer.
Alarm rang and there was my hand hitting the snooze button. Opened my eyes, sent a gud morning wish to Shampoo Boi. But not long after that was in slumberland again. Hua hua hua. Planned to wake up early this morning yet I ended up sleeping until my whole room was filled with sunshine and heat…and that woke me up.
So, went to do all the morning business then took my clothes hanging on the clothes line (which I had left it there for the wiken to dry…hahaha..lama kan) And to my surprise there was a note there saying “Beware” and the rest of the note was warning the owner of the clothes (which I think suppose to be me la if the note was not mistakenly placed there). The warning is more like a threat (from my point of view la) from the anonymous note writer. (ANW….haha like some pangkat kebesaran from the Agong pula..but that one is AMN). This ANW was accusing me to be responsible for the kehilangan of her so-called branded clothes.(cause she wrote Converse shirt la and other brand lagi la). Just because I was the last person to hang my clothes there (she claimed that oso..as if she knew that I was the last person)…stupid betul la. Well, I don’t have any idea what ridiculous accusation that she made and I don’t think I am the person who is responsible for this so I just brush this things aside la. Yet it kinda ruined my beautiful morning. Benci la see this childish way of reacting summore on lost clothes.
Not only that, when I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I saw water was flowing freely from the pipe yet no one was there and on the floor was a long yellow hose. This must be the aunty cleaner punya kerja la I tot. Then I just brush my teeth la. While I was brushing my teeth, suddenly somebody go and tengking me from the back. “Aiyo! Ini macam tak boleh la amoi” I was surprised. Wat la??somebody just come and marah2 me. It was the aunty cleaner la who tengking me. She thought I pulled the hose from the pipe. With my mouth full of toothpaste and a toothbrush sticking out from my mouth, I looked at her and tried to explain. But cant say a thing cause my mulut penuh. I cleaned my mouth then talk to her nicely la saying that I didn’t do anything except brushing my teeth and I asked her whether she wanted to cuci the bathroom at that very time or not. She didn’t reply instead she grumbled somemore. Then I just went out to find other bathroom. Huh..so much to being polite to people.Don’t they know Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita..hehe
Huhu..what I tot would be a nice morning all gone with all these macam2 kind of people. Reach school then started to mark test papers. (Which according to some teachers, we are not suppose to do that).I think true also because trained teachers are paid to do that (it is part of the job). But I don’t care also la. Extra job, can gain more. Learn more and experience more. Done marking the papers for one class, yet there were some last minute changes for the answers. First time it changed I thought it would be the last because I was happily doing the correction for the marks. But for the second time it changed I started to fume with anger already. What la?? Questions have been set and answers yet can be changed…and I have to do it for the 80+ students! I wonder the person in charge doing the questions really know how to do their work or not. Hmmmmm…
But the funny thing about marking this test papers especially the structural questions. You can get a lot of amusing answers. For example: What are the examples of nucleic acid? I can see answers such as SOYA BEAN, MEAT, FRUITS and so on. Hahaha..not ridiculing the students but I find this rather strange. Its as if they never learn about this. Hmm..maybe not enough revision. Or the teachers weren’t doing their job properly. And the most amusing thing of all I got a heart to heart scribbling of a student lamenting about her lost love. And I said “WOW” I didn’t know that kids at their age can think this deep.hehe…I didn’t know also Biology, particularly the mitosis question can inspire this student to luahkan what is in her heart…hehe.
look at this ..
How I wish I could be somewhere like the Mauritius. Seychelles. or Shangri-La Rasa Ria Resort..haha..
Tranquil and peaceful even though the sun is scorching hot but I don’t mind. As long as I can de-stress and relax. Just want to get away far from the routine that I have been following for the past 3 weeks and still will for the next 11 weeks. Just 3 weeks yet I can feel the reality of the working world already.
The routine for the past 3 weeks: morning, I woke up, prepare to go school and by 1130hrs the cute yellow (or rather orange) bus will come and fetch me to the place where I am having my practical now. Back in campus only around 1930 hrs…That’s the earliest. If got something to do (buy things or find information) it could be later than that. Plus, my practical no allowance…All expenses tanggung myself…*ouch! Miskin already now. However teaching must be “ikhlas”…haha ( I hope can think like dat)…No money cant survive wat…Somehow I must be a teacher who really observe the Falsafah Pendidikan Negara…(huhuhu..kononnya!)
Plus, everywhere I go always got sound pollution. Let alone all the other types of pollution, this pollution is very irritating one. In the room, always got the music that can be used for the actor and actresses sing and twirl around a tree, run and roll across a field and change outfits for don’t know how many times for a single song (you know what I mean or not?).Outside the room they’ll constantly be people talking as their walk by and vehicles zooming pass. In school bus, is even worse. Kids or should I say adolescents talking, yelling to one another and sometimes run and chase one another in the small packed place. If only I could measure the decibels in that place, I might be surprised how I could survive this past 3 weeks. At school, teachers and students are alike. It is a place where one can really hurt their eardrums and vocal chords at the same time. Almost everytime I come back especially after handling “notorious classes”, I have no energy to open my mouth anymore.
I don’t know what to call this. A jinx maybe. It seems that everything I do sure wont be smooth. The things that I did which is suppose to be simple and easily accomplished will detour and take the difficult route to end. *Sigh again. Not only that…My shoulders are aching because of the heavy load of books or sometimes laptop and LCD projector that I have to carry almost everyday. My feet are sore because they are not used to high heels and I have to wear that for almost half of the day. Seriously I need a break. At least a trip to a spa should do already. But no time to go!!!! Plus memang no money also.
