Beautiful Nightmare…

I guess am gonna be trained to be a perfect housewife soon considering the housework load done by me (especially in the morning). wash the dishes, clean the houses, do the laundry, cook..

People thought life is SO much easier when you only have to show up for work between 12 to 6 pm. But not in my position, before school gotta prepare for teaching *let alone more other job like class teacher and so on, the other admin job is another thing* and at the very same time the household chores gotta be running smoothly as well.

This is the disadvantage if you are a single young person but living with your family still. So those who are staying alone in a so called "rumah bujang" be thankful that you only have to take care your own S***. ahaks

more rants in my
 ..till then enjoy your life to the fullest. cos I "THINK" I am…huhu, gotta cook lunch after this

bubbly..bubbly..Hell no,it is not champagne this time. But, doh..How I miss the taste of it! I think that’s the only drink that really can take down SO fast. period. ahakz.

It’s BUBBLY by Colbie Cailat that I am listening to now while typing this post. Just so wanted to be in that mood but I just choose not to be. Since my last post, changes seems to happen again. Again.

From teaching science and biology for form 4 and 6, now I am teaching Maths for form 2 and Physical Education as well. Can you imagine that? Me, teaching PE classes. Jeeez! Hentam saja la what to do. None of these are my expertise.

The response by a much younger group of students is certainly super awkward. I am not used to entertaining kids younger than 15 years old. So, the level of communication has to be a bit childish and a LOT of physical energy especially on my vocal chords. whew! Let alone I am the form teacher for the back class, the so-called not so bright students class. Hmmmm….

Don’t ask me why suddenly I am sort-of demoted to teach a lower form. Its the school policy! *damn it* got such thing meh? With the news of all form 6 teachers will be given a chance to "naik pangkat" everybody seems so eager to teach the most senior student in school. Me, being the junior teacher there is being eliminated to give "way" to the senior teachers to teach the senior students.

Hmmmmmm…*sulk*

I have to give way eventually after a while. Everything is done subtlely the terrorist way..*I think*. Anyway, we are the ones who are "SEDIA UNTUK BERKHIDMAT" or even better "KAMI YANG MENURUT PERINTAH". So have to give way la…

everything is gonna be alright, everything is gonna be ok. That’s the only consolation that I can give to myself to keep the optimism running high. Since the new year came, it had been a hell-of-changes that was happening in and around me.

apart from putting on some "lunok"..haha.i am also adding one routine to my daily timetable that I shouldn’t do in the first place ~afternoon nap. Without it these days, I rarely can survive the day.

this coming week, will be quite or rather really hectic. more planning to do. lesson plans to type. teaching aids to do. school sports is at the end of the month, and more fun under the sun actions will be done.

and a musical concert coming up for the youth day that will be held at the parish church. I just don’t realise since when I have been so involved with the youth activity lately. God’s calling. maybe or is it just a way to divert my attention to the things that I am not suppose to think, worry and missing so much about.

the balance made it perfect but i guess am tipping over the scale because there’s not much of me-time anymore. huh.

after resigning from RRR, now am living my life as a teacher.

and to my horror, and also worst nightmare came true.. I have to teach MATHEMATICS for form 3 and from 4….ahhhhh…PANIC ATTACK!

Now I regret for not taking the job from one of the private school in KL to teach science which is a far better subject to teach.huhu..how? I am very bad in calculations let alone gotta teach the knowledge that I have not using or read for more than 7 years ago. HELP!!!

all these made me to feel very nostalgic about my previous job where everything is simpler and lively!

knowing that I have to teach here in my hometown made me feel very seriously redundant; it’s the place where I grew up, my siblings go to the same place where I teach, see the same faces wherever you go, gossip about almost the very same thing. I guess the windows to the outer world is closing in quite fast at a steady pace. I felt that I am some kind stuck somewhere and God knows how long this gonna be.